Top 5 personal Accomplishments of 2010

While pondering/reflecting on 2011′s early personal accomplishments, I realized I had never even thought about 2010′s year-wide.  So here are my top 5 accomplishments I can even remember for 2010:

1) Producing and starring in my first original musical, with the comedy troupe I created two years ago, and playing to a crowd of 250 people inside the beautiful ballroom of a casino that didn’t shut down a week before opening. All of this was co-created alongside of about 10 of my best friends, who also happen to be 10 of the most talented and creative people I know. No big deal. http://www.utilityplayerscomedy.com all the way

2) The Utility Players being voted Best Comedy Troupe in Reno; as well as 2nd Best Podcast in Reno. (I never thought I would get this into audio production, but I love it, and I rock).

3)  Convincing Best friend, Ariel Lea, to move to Reno, and accomplishing everything we set out to do, including: Write original musical, take Utility Players to the next level, and produce original demo album. Check, check, check.

4) Finishing my second year of classes at Circle’s Edge – Center For Spiritual Living (on my way to being a pracitioner, and eventually Minister). Also being the youngest member elected to the Board.

5) Manifesting the best house ever, and, playing with hundreds of pumpkins on a daily basis

Automatic Doors

In the game of Life, you will know when you’re in the flow. The high of being in the flow comes immediately after walking through the proverbial open door. You know there’s an open door when an opportunity falls in your lap and it feels intimidating and you don’t want to do it. Your rational mind comes up with a million reasons as to why you’re excused if you don’t do it. But the more resistance and fear you feel toward pursuing something, the more the Universe is truly knocking. Just know that if you take the chance, the rewards will be immediate and recurring. The doors of opportunity in the Universe are not PUSH or PULL doors that you have to awkwardly mismanage every time you try to open one; the doors of the Universe are automatic doors that will open for you the moment you decide to take your first real step toward it.

Then, just enjoy the feeling of pride you have for yourself once you’re through and on the other side. Be in Gratitude, and know that Gratitude is the force that will create the domino effect of more and even more doors opening for you.

Go Forth and Prosper,

The Jester

P.S. I had a really amazing day today. Thank you.

A Lesson in Being Still: Days 3-5 with the Angels

[A few weeks ago I wrote about my initial experience with the Angels of Transformation...I promised I would write about my last few days with them...which I did, and then I "saved to draft". I wasn't ready to publish to the world...and a few weeks later, I am  Enjoy!]

A Lesson in Being Still

Day 3: So much stuff was stirred up on the inside and outside of me on Day 2 that, on Day 3, I felt the intense and immediate need to “do something about it”.  My first reaction is immediately to turn to everyone in my life that I look up to for advice, which, in a world of ministers, practitioners, healers, and just great listeners, is a lot of people. I think another lesson I’m learning is to be able to make decisions for myself and trust myself to do the right thing, which is always my intention. So, after trying to juggle around different things that I felt I needed to “do” to remedy the situation, I decided to take the advice to just be still…let the angels take care of it…remember that I asked for transformation and I need to allow it to happen.

Day 4: The people/situations that felt uncomfortable and were causing a bit of tension in my life appeared to have “changed”. Is it too good to be true? Are the angels doing this? Or is it just that changing my consciousness around these people is starting to have some real effect? In a matter of a few days, these negative people appeared to have magically morphed into somewhat positive and upbeat human beings. They even seemed to be going out of their way to be nice to me.

Day 5: It was a nice thought. But sure enough the positivity didn’t hold and another situation was beginning to stir, and this time it was not something I could just “be still” about. So I had to make a call. It was uncomfortable, but I remembered what the angels were wanting me to be, which was calm and still, and so I very gently “dealt” with the situation. It wasn’t fun, but sure enough, by the end of the conversation, the person very nicely undid what needed to be undone, and then, with grace, removed themselves from our organization with the message that it was time for them to pursue something else; it was, I believe, in the highest good of their personal growth and of the growth of our organization. It was amazing. I was still, and the Universe handled everything else. Breakups don’t have to be ugly, and they certainly don’t have to leave things broken. It was a rough 5 days, but the angels did exactly what I had asked them to do: to raise the vibration of myself and the vibration of the organization which I lead, and although change can be sad sometimes, I do see how, in being still, I allowed my intention to come to fruition.

If anyone out there would like these angels, please let me know. They are currently being passed around my group of friends, and I can make sure they are sent to you. But be prepared: change is a’comin.

“Realists” are full of sh-……

AKA: No one can kill my buzz but me!

Have you ever met somebody so good at arguing, so good at proving their point, that they actually missed the real point? 

When people are offended by my perpetual optimism, they usually say something like: ”I’m not a pessimist, I’m just a realist.”  It makes me sad to know these folks live in a world where the two terms are related by nature.

“Realists”, philosophers, lawyers, etc., pride themselves in their ability to argue anything. They’re the people starting Facebook newsfeed drama

, or the friends you try to avoid having intelligent conversation with because you know they’re going to play devil’s advocate; they don’t even deny that fact; they think they’re charming and witty, but mostly they’re just left-brained and proud of it.

I can, and have been, one of these people. But I’m also extremely right-brained: spiritual, creative, intuitive and holistic. Because I’m totally bi-brained (ha!), I of course have the ability to identify these people, for they represent a very real part of me.

I get it– we left-brainers assume we’re so evolved (a judgement which is grounded in our biased definition of what it is to be evolved in the first place). We have the ability to justify and “rationalize” pretty much everything to our own standards. We are constantly justifying things, to other people, and especially to ourselves.

What I don’t understand, then, is why these supposed “almighty thinkers” love being pessimistic. If we have the ability to rationalize almost anything, and pride ourselves on it, why aren’t more of us choosing to see the lightness in things? Why aren’t we fighting for optimism? As many greats have said, why you gotta be such a buzz kill?

As much as professional pessimists, disguised as “realists”, tend to annoy, I have learned a most important lesson: no one can kill my buzz but me. It’s up to me what I let into my space. And if “realists” want to spend their “rational” energy proving to other people how smart they are, while getting off on killing the buzz in a room, that’s cool; I wouldn’t be a true optimist if I didn’t see the humor and light of such silliness.

,

The Jester

Amazing Interview with Dale Halaway, Transformational Master

On Personal Responsibility, Personal Power, and The Secret to Mastering Your Corner of the Universe

CLICK HERE to listen to the podcast titled “Interview with Dale Halaway” (download for free or listen streaming)

In this beautiful, amazing, and eye-opening interview, Dale and I talk about: what it really means to be “unconscious”, the grand illusion of how we think we’re conscious when we’re really not, the “games” we play with ourselves and with each other, how we must consciously choose growth, healing, and evolution, how to begin to recognize when there’s blockage in your life, why more people aren’t asking the questions due to fear of their own personal power, what happens to our suppressed emotions, and the great importance of truly owning your own feelings (even when you think what you’re feeling is someone else’s fault).

Tales from the Tattle Tale Box

Tattle Tales

The worst part about teaching kindergarten is the incessant tattling. Teachers will go to great lengths to end it. I, for example, told the children I hit my head and got a concussion and as a result can no longer physically hear tattling. It only worked sometimes. Then, being the brilliant teacher that she is, Mrs. Barnes decided to kill 2 birds with 1 stone: to alleviate the constant tattling and to encourage the children’s writing skills, Mrs. Barnes created a “Tattle Tale” box; the children write their grievances on a post-it note and put it in the box. These are their stories.  (Click here to see them!)

Here’s a preview:

Translation: “Delaney yelled at me. -Regan”

20/40 Vision & The Ability to See Myself

I wanted glasses so badly as a child that I’m almost positive I forced my eyes into going bad. My eyes turned out to be so bad over the years that my vision has been 20/40 at best, even with “corrective lenses”. I can’t explain why I wanted weird things like glasses; I also desperately wanted braces and my period. I was a strange kid.

Two weeks ago I attended a Seminars That Inspire workshop with Dale Halaway, the guy that created Transformational Life Coaching® and the TransCovery Process®. This particular seminar was about recognizing the self-defeating “games” that we play with each other and with ourselves. If we can just see what we’re doing, we can go within and find the needs, the fears, and the negative emotions keeping those behaviors in place. After the 20 hours spent at this seminar, I indeed came home motivated for healing, but it wasn’t until two weeks later I finally saw that the ultimate game I was playing was a game sabotaging the healing process itself. I have not been in integrity, and I had no idea. I was honestly convinced that I was the one healing and everyone else was making it difficult for me. The fact that healing felt difficult and was causing so much tension within my relationships with other people should have been the biggest sign that I was doing something to sabotage myself. (If you let it, healing can be easy.) The game I was playing, which I have decided to name the “One For Me, One For You” game, looked like this: I believed that every time I healed a piece of myself, it was now someone else’s turn, and I became very frustrated, or “triggered”, when someone around me wasn’t showing the same dedication. My ego convinced me that my anger was really because of them. I was standing in an energy of forced healing, but healing takes consent, and therefore, by trying to force others to heal, I was successfully sabotaging my own healing. I told myself that I had reached a plateau in my own healing, but what I wasn’t seeing was myself and the role I was playing.

It was all one big show. I felt like I should have been taking a very humble and very apologetic bow at the end. It was my roommate Chris who, without really knowing the depth of what he was showing me, was finally the mirror that I needed. It’s pretty messed up that I spent more time sabatoging my own healing process than actually healing; I AM a master magician, and I employed a fabulous smoke & mirrors trick to not only convince others that I was healing, but ultimately to convince myself. It’s scary when you finally see something for what it is; but then it’s funny. I even heard a creepy cackeling inside my head when I realized what I had been doing this whole time. Well done, me, well done.

Coincidently, I’m going to get my eyes checked today for the first time in…6 years. I have a feeling that my ability to see has improved, and maybe, for the first time in my entire life, I’ll be able to see with 20/20 vision (with glasses).

New Years Resolutions: The One-Month Checkup

Well, it’s February 7th already…and as I was scanning my TO-DOs in my dollar store pocket calendar, I came across the New Year’s Resolutions I wrote on New Year’s Eve. I guess now is a good time to checkup and checkin to see how I’m REALLY doing.

1) This one was pretty easy…I just had to decide to stop being a dick and get over it…yes my man purposely takes side streets in order to “avoid the machine”, and generally forgets where we’re going once we’re in the car, but at least he drives when I don’t want to.

2) Well, even though I stopped nagging Joe about his driving, our car broke down 3 weeks ago and I haven’t fixed it yet, so needless to say I’ve been biking a lot; praise the Lord for this BEAUTIFUL 60 degree weather we’ve been having. Yay for biking in January.

3) I’ve finished 1 book and I’m in the middle of another. But if I’m being honest, I could be reading more.

4) Meh. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m eating healthier things more consistently, but I haven’t stopped eating bad things. One step at a time.

5) Will Work For Money.

6) Closer.

7) Soon.

8.) Not even close; I need a more disciplined yoga habit.

9) Getting better everyday, especially today.

10). WOW. I went from 1100+ unread messages to 500+….it’s a start. I also started “unsubscribing” every time some junk crap I signed up for comes in. I don’t need my horoscope mailed to me…I can go look it up if I really want to know, so get out of my inbox.

Postaday2011

I hereby announce that I am taking the WordPress.com Postaday2011 challenge! And in case I fall behind, I’m joining Postaweek2011 as a safety net